A question for me and you to think about… (and maybe comment about?):
Am I just a mess of lots of faces or do some people bring out some parts of me?
Quite literally… I have different personas with different people. For example with my brothers and sisters I come out as a geeky, dopey
(in the sense that my brain is slow), loving little girl. At school with my friends and classmates alike I come out as a perceptive, creative, funny and unique young adult.
Like I said I think I ‘come out’ that way but actually try to portray myself in the way that I am. But because I’m all over the place… I don’t know what I actually am.
I know which face to put on when! But that’s fucking wrong.
There is one thing in common I’ve had with everyone in my entire life:
I’ve never let anyone see what goes on inside my head… what I feel or think.
I always assumed that it was because I simply didn’t feel anything but I actually do… hatred… That’s it!
Loving… Caring… I don’t know how to do that. There is one person that I have loved… My nephew who is just going to be two years old soon. That’s the only person that I would say
I LOVE YOU
Because I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore!!
Have a good night.
Cold Night – You Me At Six
~ living in the atmosphere; learning who I am